finding the balance

balance? what's that?

I know that artists, self-help folks, coaches, therapists, spiritual counselors and others have spoken ad nauseum about finding balance. About not being off kilter. About putting the oxygen mask on yourself before putting one on the person you’re traveling with.

Now I’m just trying to figure out how to balance the balancing with all of the other stuff I gotta do!

Each night, I go to bed and fully convince myself that I have the wherewithal to eat healthy, lose weight, make a living, make art and support my fellow PSA artists, along with keeping a nice home and sharing a healthy and loving life with my husband and furry children. Once I do all of that, being a better friend, sister, daughter, aunt, daughter-in-law should be a snap!

I mean, how hard could it be to keep a schedule like this: pop out of bed (7 am), do some stretching (7:05 am), write morning pages (7:30 am), eat breakfast (8 am), take care of the animals (8:15 am), do the elliptical (8:30 am) and then shower (8:45 am) and dress (oops…I’ve run out of time!) and start working at 9? If nothing goes wrong, it’s doable (I could eat while I write, right?). How do I make sure it all gets done, though? What do other folks do? Do I need to schedule everything on my calendar? Make a list? Put signs all over the house that say “exercise at 8 am!” and “paint backgrounds on some journal pages at 2 pm!”?

What it’s beginning to come down to, for me, is Pick Something … Anything … And Do It. Sure, I’ll keep organized with task lists and make sure to keep my  deadlines loose, but rather than forcing myself to write a blog post at 9:30 am or update a client’s site at 1:15, I need to FEEL what to do next. I’m hoping this approach will help me with the blocks I keep having.

I’ve begun asking myself some questions: Do I feel like doing busy work or doing thinking work? Do I feel like being active and accomplished or is it time to sit back in a new atmosphere and read and dream up some new ideas? Does this task I’ve chosen get me closer to or further away from my goal?  In a few weeks, I’ll let you know how this is going. 😀